Melody and lyrics ©1994 by Catherine Faber
I want to understand you, and I fear I
You stymied every plan I had; you saw me learn to kill.
I meant to steal your life, and world, your title and your
Yet you called me brother, and the name you gave
I am not what you are,
although your face I wear
Sculpted as your mirror, with most painful patient care.
Molded in deception, for war and murder grown,
The hatreds of your history have warped my flesh and
I have met your father and led him close
Grey as any ghost I've watched him fight for every
I knew him as a murderer, the foe of every good,
Yet I, who am no better, would have eased him if I
I have met your mother; she seems to see
To know my every memory, each scar across my soul.
She sees the world so carefully; a thousand shades of
Still expecting miracles from crushed and twisted
Your troopers gave me welcome, and your
form they smiled to see;
Their kindnesses were bitter, for they weren't meant for
Your home, your rank, your memory, your duties, and your
Your mother's God forbid ... that I have them in your
I want to understand you, now I fear the
chance is lost.
I had so much to say to you, I'm bankrupt of the cost.
Half of me still hates you as the source of all my
But years ago you marked me, and the name you